A little update!

Firstly I just want to say sorry for being MIA for a while, over the past couple of weeks I have really struggled with my depression, so much so I felt like I didn't want to do anything or go anywhere.

When I would be around people I felt really weepy and would cry uncontrollably and it would be the slightest thing that would set me of!

I felt like I hit rock bottom and decided to make an appointment with my GP. Now if you know me, then you will know that I try my hardest to avoid taking tablets, even paracetamol!

So when a Dr suggested that I would benefit from taking antidepressants I was very sceptical but thought that things had got to bad and I had to give anything that would help a try.

I was prescribed antidepressants (I won't go into which ones as I am not medically trained etc) and after researching and reading people's reviews I scared myself into not taking them and another week went by.

Everyone who I was speaking to was asking how the tablets were going and if I had started taking them. I shared my thoughts with them and after outwaying the good from the bad I decided I just had to give them a go.

The tablets I was taking were two tablets one in a morning and one in a evening. After three days of taking them I knew that this was not going to work, I had really painful headaches (like the pressure you  feel when taking off on a plane) and also trouble swollowing not to mention constantly feeling sick.

I looked at the leaflet and they strongly suggested not stopping until you see your GP, my next appointment wasn't until a further 3 weeks so I decided to call the pharmacy who explained that after taking them for only three days it would be fine to stop.

I decided to come off the tablets but still kept my appointment that I booked with my GP. Now the GP I saw this time was a familiar one, a one who has helped and listen to my Mam in the past, and a one I trust.

She didn't just look at her computer screen, she looked at me, asked about what went on with previous tablets and said that if she thought I was worried about taking any antidepressants then she wouldn't feel comfortable in prescribing them to me.

She then went to ask about why I was unsure of them and what my concerns were. I felt able to talk to her and ask even the silliest of questions without feeling, well silly!

After speeking to her I felt a lot calmer and agreed to give some new tablets a try and I am so glad I did!

So far the only side effect I have had is feeling sleepy so so far so good! What I do want to say is that if your nervous about  taking any medication, speak to your GP! Write a list with your questions and concerns so you are prepared and although the Internet can offer some amazing advice it can also have the opposite effect and your GP will be the best point of call.

I feel extremely lucky that I have managed to find someone who has been through a similar situation and has found a positive result from taking antidepressants. It's so helpful to have someone to ask questions and talk to about it!

Aswell as the above I have been worrying about the Race for Life which is this weekend, when I originally signed up I had planned to be more prepared at this stage and the thought of not being able to complete it terrifies me!

After a lot of persusuading by some great friends I am going to just turn up and give it my best shot!

I do hope to get back into the swing of things again with my blog but it may take a week or so.

I am now the owner of a iPhone 6 and I am loving having a iPhone again! So with that being said my Instagram is getting more attention than it previously did, you can find me at little_miss_plus_size so come and say hi!

Lastly I just want to say a huge thank you to everyone who has liked my Facebook page and entered my dress competition and the winner has been announced and I am pleased to say that she has also received her dress and looks amazing!

Thank you for sticking by me and thanks for reading!

Tracy xx